When doubt comes a-knockin'

" [...] and it's doubt that gives you the education."

I was fed up of researching about Satanism and religions; I decided to give it all a break. My brain's wheezing. I'm tired. It's all too consuming-- you're probably tired of me discussing about this, too.

But for some reason, doubting is good, even if it's like being confused. Very irritating.

A point in Satanism says that, "I let man eat the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge because I want them to be all equal, to expand the knowledge of humanity, to be more than what they are."

Which made me think hard.

Why can't man extend his abilities? Why can't we be more than what we are? What is He afraid of? Is He afraid in the first place?

On His part, however, I remembered a quote, "You must never question Me." Which made me feel a whole lot guilty thinking of more questions.

Why did people burn witches? Because they were afraid of extending forth of what we're able to do? Because we were narrow-minded, then? Isn't it about being the best of what you can be?

For days, (and a week, too) I was distraught looking for answers. I couldn't pray with sincerity. The words were just words. No meaning; merely expressing just to be said 'I was praying'. It was worthless to pray. If I didn't mean it, I shouldn't be praying. Instead, the only thing I prayed about was guidance, and I told Him that I hope to find answers soon. Because living in endless doubt is extremely annoying.

And then here's a bit of silliness: I was on facebook, and took this application 'See what God wants you to know...' and on that say, I had;

"... That you will soon learn from your doubts and confusions. Just wait for it. Only time will tell."

It made me roll my eyes, and say, "Oh great, fine, I'll just wait since everything seems to happen in time."

Well lo an behold, I snapped out of the confusion.

I was watching a show on Discovery channel, about how robots are going to be in the future. Technology will soon make us laze around, they'd do everything now, no human interactions at all-- it's all a pathetic sight, but some others find it cool.

So human technology, to me, will be our own doom. Man will destroy man. Soon robots will be everywhere, soon robots will be able to think for themselves. So much for human intelligence. So much for extending our abilities.

That's when it came to me.

Maybe that's what God had in mind. If we were to extend our abilities further, use 100% of our brain all the time, we would self destruct. And He wouldn't want that.

For some reason, it's still happening. Human technology continues to evolve, some people are blinded to see that this will be our downfall. God doesn't want this. Satan does. He wants man to fight against each other. He enjoys seeing us being war-freaks. Then hatred, the blaming, will soon come after.

I'm now seeing the light.
Hallelujah. :)